RE: I'm trapped

I'm trapped. Where are the keys?

88 of them can be found on a traditional grand piano. I know this is not the sort of key which you are searching for, or the key in which a song is written. But, if you find them, there's a start, and then with the progressions, there's a way out from one key to the next. Now that I have expressed all of my knowledge of the structure of music, I can refer to some of the other points in your post.

You are not forgotten. In fact, people still listen to old, obscure music that probably hasn't had a whole bunch of plays.

I still listen to a band that opened for another band I was interested in and saw. That brand has broken up, but I tracked down some of the members on instagram to see what they were up to. They're still making music. They would not have forgotten about that time, that band that transient moment in their careers.

I didn't tell them that I remembered them, but I listened to their song and I remembered them. You won't know them, but now you can remember this story.

I think that there are a few different schools of music making - there are those who do it to define themselves. I'm a musician, I'm an artist, I'm a writer, I'm an arsehole, or whatever they are. Then there are those who create whatever they create and they become defined.

There is of course, the theory that creatives cannot create unless they are miserable. That works for some, but I think I have been at my most proliic when I have been happy, even if I am writing about / photographing / conceptualising miserable, dark, macabre subjects.

Hapiness isn't a cure, it is merely a state of mind.