Nothing is more urgent than anguish. We, human beings, whenever we feel the need to feel strong emotions, such as drama or anguish, we really feel them in a non-logical way. Maybe that's where the opposition to the rationality of some emotions comes from. I'm close to my period this month, so maybe a lot of my sensitivity stems from that, and I don't quite know how to express pre-menstrual syndrome in words; but ‘chaos’ is one that fits perfectly well.
‘Mummy, music calms the beasts,’ says my daughter, interrupting my conversation with my boyfriend, who was making extra efforts to tolerate me. While menstruation is not enough to justify bad attitudes, it is no less true that it is easy to express an opinion when you are not dominated by your body chemistry and can do absolutely nothing about it. I went into my room and listened to my daughter and her joke about my state... I put together a short playlist, and I tell you, objectively Selena has no place next to The Arctic Monkeys, let alone a girl like Olivia Rodrigo in the same musical armoury as Nina Simone.
So, yes, that's how changeable the ‘special’ days of us women are. Still, as I write this too, I realise that I can't help the dramatic tone, haha. At least this month, it's the music and the humour, part of something that, sadly, we don't often express too much .... While it's nice to be accompanied by good music, it's also too strange, even for a middle-aged woman like me. There are songs that are better than chocolate these days, and tears that we know are going to fall and deliberately seek to shed....
Tuesday, weekday, life doesn't stop and even less work. But I like to know that I always find allies. My family plays some jokes on me because of my changeable temperament, but it's the music that makes meaningful that need for extreme drama that only we feel during those days. And sometimes, the simplest thing is the most advisable. Let's not forget that music has always been by our side and has accompanied us at all times.
And in the face of the apparent ‘end of the world’ that all of us girls experience every month, I like to be able to maintain that healthy habit of listening to music to ‘calm the beast’ that inhabits me every month..... I confess it's amazing the range of songs a woman is able to enjoy in a couple of hours in a room. Besides, in this globalised age, full of bad news and a devastated economy, nothing is more pleasurable than passing ‘the pains’ through the loud singing of the songs that make us happy (or deliberately sad) about life.
