Rivers (Tears of the Fallen)
by @manuel78 on Manuel
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Rivers (Tears of the Fallen)
Lyrics (Simplified Structure):
Intro
Now...I lay on the ground.
Verse
I tried to be your everything...
But you knocked me down,fell upon the seams.
Now within the ground,my soul seeped through the cracks in the ground.
And now the demons got ahold of my soul...now tearing me apart.
Your rejection tore me deep within my soul...
How can I breathe now without you?
Chorus
Now I lay on the ground,now unable to move.
Spirit shattered and broken,screaming aloud.
I try to gather my thoughts in my head,but everything's scattered.
I can't form a thought into photographs.
Verse 2
I look now,reliving our life...how did we get here?
Was it my fault or yours?
I thought it was perfect...but you tore me down to the ground.
Ripped me apart and kicked me some more.
I can't believe how my heart fell apart.
But here I lay...my world fell apart.
Bridge
I needed you in it to help me survive.
Now that you're gone...now I can't even breathe.
So here I lay now...no hunger in sight.
My tears making rivers,and I sigh.
And I drift in and out of this world...baby,I miss you.
I wish you the best,even though you ripped our world apart.
I wish you happiness beyond what I gave you.
Smile for them bright,light their world...
Just don't shatter them too.
Outro
Because the pain is so hard...I cannot breathe.
My heart skips many beats...my energy was taken,my hunger gone.
My tears form rivers...even though you're gone.
The memories haunt me...till my dying day.
(They haunt me...)
Till my dying day.
- The Cracks in the Ground
Now...I lay on the ground.
The sentence was not a thought. It was a fact, as real and unyielding as the cold, scratchy fibers of the carpet pressing against his cheek. Leo did not remember falling. One moment he was standing in the echoing silence of the apartment they had shared, the next he was here, prone, as if the sheer weight of the truth had simply pressed him flat. He did not try to get up.
I tried to be your everything... The words echoed in the hollow of his skull. He had. He had tried to be the rock, the cheerleader, the listener, the lover, the repairer of broken days. He had built his identity around the scaffolding of us.
But you knocked me down,fell upon the seams. She hadn't pushed him, not physically. The "knock down" was the final conversation. The calm, resolute delivery of her decision. It was the seismic tremor that found the fault lines in the foundation he had built, and the entire structure had collapsed. He had fell upon the seams—the weak points where his devotion met her doubt, where his dreams met her different path. Now he was in the rubble.
Now within the ground,my soul seeped through the cracks in the ground. The ground was not just the floor. It was the new, lower plane of existence he occupied. His essence, his spirit, felt liquid and lost, draining away into the darkness beneath the foundation of his former life. And now the demons got ahold of my soul...now tearing me apart. The demons were the questions. What was wrong with me? What did I miss? When did you stop loving me? They were not shouted; they were whispered, incessantly, by a chorus of regrets in the dark, and each whisper was a tiny, tearing claw.
Your rejection tore me deep within my soul... It was not a surface wound. It was a visceral, internal laceration. It was the feeling of a vital organ being cleanly, surgically removed, leaving a cavity that howled with the wind of absence. How can I breathe now without you? The question was literal. The rhythm of his breath had been tied to the rhythm of their life together. The inhale: waiting for her to come home. The exhale: her laugh in the next room. Now the mechanism was broken. The air was thin, useless.
Time lost meaning. He lay there as the afternoon light slid across the floor, then faded. Now I lay on the ground,now unable to move. Paralysis was not just physical. It was the will. The idea of standing, of walking to the kitchen, of performing the actions of a living person, felt as impossible as flight. Spirit shattered and broken,screaming aloud. The scream was utterly silent, contained within the prison of his body, a continuous, soundless wail that vibrated in every cell.
I try to gather my thoughts in my head,but everything's scattered. He would try to think of a practical thing—call his boss, eat something—but his mind was a room where a bomb had gone off. Memories, plans, simple facts, were all just debris swirling in the dust-choked air. I can't form a thought into photographs. He used to think in images—their future home, her face on a pillow next to his, a shared joke. Now, he could not assemble the mental pieces to create a single, coherent picture of a tomorrow, or even a coherent now.
Eventually, his eyes focused on a scuff mark on the baseboard. I look now,reliving our life... how did we get here? His mind began its cruelest work: the forensic replay. The movie of their years, but now he was watching for the exact frame where the story veered toward this ending. Was it my fault or yours? He assigned blame, first to her, then to himself, then to the chaotic universe. The cycle offered no answers, only deeper cuts.
I thought it was perfect...but you tore me down to the ground. The perfection was his perception, his narrative. Her reality had been different, and she had finally voiced it, and in doing so, had dismantled his entire world. Ripped me apart and kicked me some more. The ripping was the leaving. The kicking was the calm finality of it, the way she had already grieved and moved on while he was still believing in the dream. I can't believe how my heart fell apart. It was a mechanical disbelief. He could feel the pieces, sharp and jagged, shifting inside his chest with every beat. But here I lay...my world fell apart. The two statements were the sum total of his reality.
The deep, functional truth rose, a cold wave. I needed you in it to help me survive. She hadn't just been his love; she had been his ecosystem. His coping mechanism for stress, his source of joy, his reason to strive. She was the software that ran his life. Uninstalled, the system crashed. Now that you're gone...now I can't even breathe. The breathlessness returned, a panicky, shallow thing.
So here I lay now...no hunger in sight. Hours passed. His stomach should have growled. It was silent. The body's most basic signal was extinguished. My tears making rivers,and I sigh. The tears had come in a flood, then subsided to a constant, slow leak. The sighs were the sound of his spirit deflating, over and over.
A strange, hollow calm would occasionally seep in. And I drift in and out of this world...baby, I miss you. In the half-sleep of exhaustion, he would forget. For a second, she was just in the other room. Then he would remember, and the pain was fresh, a brand-new amputation.
And from this battered place, a terrible, generous thought emerged. I wish you the best,even though you ripped our world apart. He didn't mean it with bitterness, but with a weary, genuine hope. He loved who she was, even if that person could no longer love him. I wish you happiness beyond what I gave you. It was the ultimate surrender. He was conceding that his best had not been enough for her, and hoping she found what she needed. Smile for them bright,light their world... He could still picture her radiant smile, the one that had once lit his own world. The thought of it being given to someone else was agony, but he wished it for her nonetheless. Just don't shatter them too. It was a plea, born of his own ruins. A hope that her new path would not involve creating another landscape of debris like the one he inhabited.
The calm would pass. The raw truth would rush back in, colder and harder. Because the pain is so hard...I cannot breathe. It was a suffocating weight on his sternum. My heart skips many beats...my energy was taken, my hunger gone. His physiology was in revolt, a mirror of the emotional cataclysm. My tears form rivers...even though you're gone. The grief was self-perpetuating now, a cycle independent of her presence. It lived in the empty space she left behind.
He knew, with a certainty that felt like a life sentence, that this would not be a chapter. It would be a filter through which all future light would pass. The memories haunt me...till my dying day. Not just the bad ones. The good ones were the most haunting, because they were now artifacts of a lost country. They were beautiful ghosts that would forever walk the halls of his mind.
A final, whispered echo sealed his fate, there on the floor.
(They haunt me...)
Till my dying day.
The light was gone. The room was dark. He lay on the ground, in the cracks, where his soul had seeped out. The world had fallen apart, and for now, and for a long time to come, this was where the pieces lay.