A meal to revitalize the soul - MUSIC

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Music, they say is food for the soul and for those of us that believe in the soul, we know that it is the driving force of the body. The energy that makes the body to act, do and function. Like we feed our body to give it a healthy build, similarly, we feed our soul too for a better mental health or a state of mind.

You see, music can be anything that is pleasant to the ear and uplifting for the soul. It could be rhymes or it could be instrumental.

Now the prompt is, do you build with music and how?

Well, for me, music gives me some sort of extra boost. It increases my morale and if I need to get a task done, especially when I'm not feeling the will to, I put my air pod on and listen to some nice tunes. It is safe to say that it makes me extra productive, saves me time plus energy too.

A task that will take me long, inconveniencing hours to execute and conclude, I find myself rounding it up with the speed of light while listening to some of my favorite music. Music even builds my confidence level, there was a time that I worked three jobs and tried to make myself available for everyone.

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I was managing a fraction of the family business (hospitality) on behalf of my cousin who was due for birthing, I was blogging and then there's my main job. I also had to be a parent and be available for my daughter. My life was so fixated on keeping up the strong girl image and I didn't want to seem inadequate because my family was counting on me. I was giving too much of myself because I didn't want to let anyone down.

My activities went from the hotel to the office, to the house to spend some time with my daughter at the close of work, then back to the hotel again. Gradually, I was burning out but I kept putting up the tough girl show.

As hard as those days were for me, I'd say that I handled it like a champ. Thanks to Sia, her song big girls cry became some sort of mental booster for me. Every morning as I get ready for work, I play it on repeat. It was a daily reminder that it's ok to cry when I'm burned out, it's ok to get emotional when I'm overwhelmed and sometimes it's ok to not always be the strong one.

Sia on that song reminded me that I'm human, I'm not a robot and sometimes I need to slow down. It reminded me that I need to take a break too for leisure. Sia made me feel confident in my short comings, especially when I realized that I could learn from it and do better.

From the video, we see Maddie the dance expressionist struggle with different stages of emotions. That's how it was for me those times I was everywhere, the one emotion that I could hold on to then was that of anger laced with sadness. No matter how hard I try back then, I couldn't get on with happiness why?

Well, my life was on the fast lane, and I seem to not have any control as to my speed limit.

I could not even express how I was feeling because no one really wants to hear you complain. You are complaining and most of what you get is, oh that's how life is, you have to be tough. You'd be caught crying and you'd get rebuked why?

Because we've been indoctrinated that crying doesn't solve anything.

You'd be going through a lot of mental stress, and it will often affect how you appear, but then there's not much care from people to know what's going on behind the scenes, they just judge. Then when it comes to self, we get so scared of being judged that we bottled up everything we feel, every emotion and put on a mask, a fake smile, forced perfection, self-deceit and ultimately denial.

I'd say Sia really did a number on me with that song, it gave me the mental boost that I needed to decide what's best for me. I finally get to put me and my duty as a parent first. I stopped trying to impress anyone and started doing me. As long as no one was getting hurt and nothing was getting damaged, I stopped caring about people's opinions and judgment.

You know, we really can't please everyone and when I restricted all my activities to a specific time frame, my aunt got pissed that I was no longer going overboard for the business. Was the business still running smoothly with the time frame that I had allocated to it? Of course, it was but it didn't matter to my aunt because I wasn't being used anymore.

Eventually, when my cousin got done with her maternity leave, she called one day to inform me that my services was no longer needed. I didn't have to pretend like I was still interested in working. I immediately told her I would be moving out and she was like, wow! Just like that? You won't even stay a bit and probably move out the following week? If it was before, I'd say ok but then I told her immediately that I was tired and overwhelmed, I needed to leave with immediate effect.

I didn't have to do too much or explain too much, I put myself first and that was my first step to being happy. Then who says crying doesn't solve anything? At least for me, it lessens the burden of pain that I feel in my heart.

Video was gotten from Youtube

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