Dreams May Wait, But They Never Fade...

Growing up in the rural neighbourhood of Anambra state, worshiping in one of the catholic churches there, I remember how we enjoyed the choristers singing different hymns in different melodious voices. Thinking about it now, it strikes me of how they were able to create such beauty without any musical instruments. It was an outstation church , and perhaps that was why they were just singing without those instruments I guess. It wasn't until later that I realized how things could be different with musical instruments backing up those melodious vocals.

Entering secondary school became my first experience celebrating Mass with loads of musical instruments, with my eyes wide open, I was like, huh! Is that what I've been missing? I've been In the dark for so long for real! Damn!! It wasn't just about the music but the feeling of every note and every chord sending down emotions running down the spine. That day, I fell in love not just with music but with the keyboard itself.

I had always been a lover of music right from my childhood days as my dad always played different genres of songs and I'll attempt singing alongside the artists even though I was basically humming and flowing with the rhythm, lol. That Mass was a great experience for me as it gave me the vibes or sensation of being at a live performance.

Watching the likes of Jon Lord, Rick Wakeman and Keith Emerson ever handle those piece (Keyboard) in videos I found online from triggers this evocative awe, stirring within me as if I'm witnessing the very essence of musical geniuses.

Soon, it wasn't enough to just be a lover of music just by listening alone as I wanted something more. I wanted to become a player of musical instrument and it was keyboard, the imagination of my fingers gliding over the keys to create melodies that speak emotions words cannot became my new dream.

That was the birth of that dream and one that has been kept alive for almost Nine years now, though without an attempt at it still is watered waiting for the 'perfect' time to get into the tutorials. In 2020, during the COVID-19 pandemic, I thought I had found a perfect opportunity. With everyone stuck at home, I felt it was time to finally learn my dream. I even considered joining a music school but just as I was about starting, news came that our school was getting a waiver for us to come back and write our professional exams.

Preparing for those exams were always time consuming and the idea of learning the keyboard was once again taken back inside the drawer. And ever since then, it's been jump from one exam to another until I just finished and it wasn't something I could combine with my academics too so I just had it at the back of my mind that I would love to handle the keyboard one day, but when is what I really don't know.

I've never lost the passion even for a single day and anytime I get to hear those notes from the hands of the organist at various places, I feel inspired and imagine myself in that moment but those setbacks, that's just a tip of how it seems life has been conspiring against me with various things and even the ever-present excuse of "not enough time." The idea of waiting for the stars to align is nothing more than a comforting illusion, a way to justify procrastination. If I don’t make the time, the dream will remain just that—a dream.

Deep down, I know that there will never be a perfect time, perfect time alone is just a bliss, nothing more than a comforting illusion and a way to fuel procrastination.And that if I don't make the time, I will never do it.

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Hence, I have been thinking deeply on how to go about this and for a start, I've been researching online for the various online tutorials and possibly local music schools that could help me pending when I'm able to raise the capital to buy my own piece. Dedicating 15 minutes everyday to fuel this my dream will go a long way.

The journey won't be easy and there will still be challenges upfront but I'm determined to see it through this year.
Dreams may wait, but they never fade and mine has been laid low for long , however, now is the time to wake it up.

Thanks for reading and have a nice day ahead 👍

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