𝓜𝔂 𝓜𝓸𝓶𝓮𝓷𝓽 𝓞𝓯 𝓖𝓻𝓪𝓽𝓲𝓽𝓾𝓭𝓮 - Sunday 10 August 2025

Though I did some serious rewiring already, I am starting to see how stuck I have been in that scarcity mindset.

Limiting myself for decades....

Because planning a future feels like a luxury when survival is the focus.

These posts are:

𝒯𝑜 𝓊𝓃𝒹𝑜 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒹𝒶𝓂𝒶𝑔𝑒 𝐼 𝒹𝒾𝒹 𝓉𝑜 𝓂𝓎𝓈𝑒𝓁𝒻 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓂𝓎 𝒷𝑒𝓁𝒾𝑒𝒻 𝒾𝓃 𝒶𝒷𝓊𝓃𝒹𝒶𝓃𝒸𝑒.
𝒯𝑜 𝒷𝑒 𝑔𝓇𝒶𝓉𝑒𝒻𝓊𝓁 𝒻𝑜𝓇 𝓌𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝐼 𝒽𝒶𝓋𝑒.
𝒯𝑜 𝓊𝓃𝓉𝒶𝓃𝑔𝓁𝑒 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓇𝑒𝓈𝓉 𝑜𝒻 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓌𝒾𝓇𝑒𝓈 𝒾𝓃 𝓂𝓎 𝓈𝒸𝒶𝓇𝒸𝒾𝓉𝓎 𝓂𝒾𝓃𝒹𝓈𝑒𝓉.
𝒯𝑜 𝓇𝑒𝑜𝓅𝑒𝓃 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒹𝑜𝑜𝓇𝓈 𝑜𝒻 𝓅𝑒𝓇𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉𝒾𝑜𝓃, 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓇𝑒𝓂𝑒𝓂𝒷𝑒𝓇 𝓌𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝐼 𝓀𝓃𝑒𝓌 𝒷𝑒𝒻𝑜𝓇𝑒.

What are the reasons why I feel I am finally playing the game of life at the level I always wanted to play?

Let's see what Chat says?

There are a few possible reasons you might feel like it took 49 years to “play the game of life at your level”:

1. Accumulated wisdom finally paying off
   You’ve been through enough cycles of trial and error to truly understand your strengths, limits, and values. Now, instead of playing by others’ rules, you’re designing your own game plan.

2. Shifting from survival to thriving
   For much of life, we often operate in “survival mode”—building a career, raising kids, managing responsibilities. Those phases can keep you on someone else’s schedule. Now, you might finally have the emotional and mental bandwidth to pursue life on your own terms.

3. Release of self-imposed limits
   Sometimes it takes decades to recognize—and dismantle—the inner scripts (“I’m not ready,” “I’m not enough,” “I can’t take that risk”) that held us back. Rewriting them changes everything.

4. Reframing what “your level” even means
   You might not have been playing below your level before—you were simply learning the rules, collecting skills, and discovering the kind of player you actually are. Now, your game is intentional, strategic, and aligned.

5. Midlife clarity and urgency
   Hitting a milestone age often creates an urgency to fully engage with life before it’s too late. That pressure can feel uncomfortable—but it’s also rocket fuel for finally living authentically.

Chat is totally wrong, which means my prompts were wrong, but there are a few points here that could have made sense. Let me dig into both a bit more tomorrow.

Thank you for making it this far....for those who know me...or better, think they know me, this might have been a WTF moment.

About Me
I’m a self-explorer, writer, and truth-seeker on a journey of turning the unconscious into conscious awareness. For years, I lived under the weight of hidden beliefs—scarcity, unworthiness, fear of failure—that shaped my life without me realizing it. It wasn’t fate; it was the unseen patterns within me.

Through deep self-reflection, journaling, and emotional exploration, I learned to face my shadows and rewrite my story. I believe healing begins when we dare to confront the parts of ourselves we’ve kept in the dark. My journey has been about making peace with these inner landscapes and choosing new beliefs that uplift rather than limit.

Forgiveness, both of myself and others, has been a powerful catalyst in my transformation. It has allowed me to release resentment, dissolve emotional burdens, and create space for growth and inner peace.

I use words to translate emotions into clarity. Writing is how I navigate my inner world—it’s how I process, release, and transform. Every tear, every insight, every shadow is part of my path toward wholeness.

Here, I share my reflections, my learnings, and my ongoing journey of self-discovery. If you’re someone who feels life has been running on autopilot and you’re ready to take the wheel, you’ll find a kindred spirit in me.

Rudyard Kipling´s (1865 – 1936) IF

If you can keep your head when all about you

Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;

If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,

But make allowance for their doubting too;

Because I looked,

I looked at my mind from both sides now,
From up and down, and still somehow
It's my mind´s illusions I recall
I really don't know my mind at all