Sometimes, just not all the time

I was talking to my wife a few days ago, maybe it's a thing that happens with age, maybe it's the alignment of the planets (hell nah), but I feel like I'm reaching a point in my life when rekindling old memories, old "pain", if you will, makes me smile.

Don't know how else to describe it, and I hope I'm not alone, so that one day someone can help me understand myself a little better.

Most of the music I wrote was from a time that I experienced a lot of pain, a lot of loss. This is mostly why it felt emotional, sometimes too emotional to revisit the memories at all.

When I left performing behind, I thought I left that part of me that was "unhappy" but honestly, looking back, I think I had it all wrong, all along. I think abandoning any part of us "is" what can make us potentially unhappy, and thus embracing ourselves warts and all is "the trick".

At a very low point of my life, I wrote this song....

It was so long ago, it feels like a cover at this point. But, finding that old folder with old lyrics made me smile.

I even had to relearn the chords... imagine: "how does my own song go?"

Anyways, sharing because of yes, I guess...

Sometimes, just not all the time

MenO