𝓜𝔂 𝓜𝓸𝓶𝓮𝓷𝓽 𝓞𝓯 𝓖𝓻𝓪𝓽𝓲𝓽𝓾𝓭𝓮 - Wednesday 25 June 2025

Though I did some serious rewiring already, I am starting to see how stuck I have been in that scarcity mindset.

Limiting myself for decades....

Because planning a future feels like a luxury when survival is the focus.

These posts are:

𝒯𝑜 𝓊𝓃𝒹𝑜 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒹𝒶𝓂𝒶𝑔𝑒 𝐼 𝒹𝒾𝒹 𝓉𝑜 𝓂𝓎𝓈𝑒𝓁𝒻 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓂𝓎 𝒷𝑒𝓁𝒾𝑒𝒻 𝒾𝓃 𝒶𝒷𝓊𝓃𝒹𝒶𝓃𝒸𝑒.
𝒯𝑜 𝒷𝑒 𝑔𝓇𝒶𝓉𝑒𝒻𝓊𝓁 𝒻𝑜𝓇 𝓌𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝐼 𝒽𝒶𝓋𝑒.
𝒯𝑜 𝓊𝓃𝓉𝒶𝓃𝑔𝓁𝑒 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓇𝑒𝓈𝓉 𝑜𝒻 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓌𝒾𝓇𝑒𝓈 𝒾𝓃 𝓂𝓎 𝓈𝒸𝒶𝓇𝒸𝒾𝓉𝓎 𝓂𝒾𝓃𝒹𝓈𝑒𝓉.
𝒯𝑜 𝓇𝑒𝑜𝓅𝑒𝓃 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒹𝑜𝑜𝓇𝓈 𝑜𝒻 𝓅𝑒𝓇𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉𝒾𝑜𝓃, 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓇𝑒𝓂𝑒𝓂𝒷𝑒𝓇 𝓌𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝐼 𝓀𝓃𝑒𝓌 𝒷𝑒𝒻𝑜𝓇𝑒.

This could be any other Wednesday, but it´s not.
From a scarcity point of view, it still might be; from an abundance point of view, it is a day that will deliver new insights if you are willing to look and/or listen.

From my point of view, it is the 25th of June.

My brother's Birthday.
A few years ago, he celebrated his last one.
A few weeks later, he would hear that it probably was his last one.

A few months after that, it became a certainty.
Now it´s no use crying over things, although it´s what humans tend to do.

Crying is a kind of release valve — it relieves tension in the body, signals to others that we need care, and expresses what words often fail to say.

Grief honors what mattered. It’s not weakness — it’s presence. Over time, grief becomes part of our growth. As the poet Kahlil Gibran wrote:

“The deeper that sorrow carves into your being, the more joy you can contain.”

What does that guy want?
For me to feel bad because I do not grieve, and do not cry?

I guess I do not see death as the end of life; death does not cause life to be scarce in my perception.

Death is not loss; all the moments are still there?
So, should I mourn the loss of what could have been?

Life is never-ending, this mortal coil is, and I made peace with its impermanence a long time ago.

My grief is a quiet reverence.

It’s about honoring what was, like lighting a candle in your heart, and saying thanks for all the moments and lessons.

Yes, I lost a brother, for now, because we might meet again, don´t know how...don´t know when.

His essence will move on, and I am thankful for the peace he found.

“Death is not the opposite of life, but a part of it.”
— Haruki Murakami

I guess I am not limited by my scarcity mindset when it comes to death, or life for that matter. I have the privilege of seeing every day as a bonus.

That has not always been the case.
When I was surviving, I saw every day as a struggle.
A task to complete.

Changing my mindset might have already started before my brother's life ended, but his death was his gift to me.

He showed me that it can be over tomorrow, that we only have today.
That we can work our ass of to secure a future that might never come.

My mind was so hyper-focused on surviving and getting by till that moment.

A few months after his death, when I looked down from a 6-story building and realized that I need to survive, but at the same time, I need to seize the day.

Enjoy a moment every day, make a memory that carries a feeling.

Open up for all things I closed myself off for trying to survive.
Since that day, the abundance in my life has become more visible.

Thank you, brother, for letting your death be my gift of life.

Thank you for making it this far....for those who know me...or better, think they know me, this might have been a WTF moment.

There are many sides to all of us, some sides we hide, even from ourselves.
I can be an opinionated little prick, a loving father, or simply a lost soul.

“If the doors of perception were cleansed, everything would appear to man as it is: infinite.”
— William Blake, The Marriage of Heaven and Hell

Jim Morrison named The Doors after this concept. I agree that reality is filtered through our limited perceptions. But we can Break On Through to the other side.

"There are things known and things unknown, and in between are the doors."
— Jim Morrison

Our minds filter & reduce everything to a digestible and categorizable size, but in the process, we lose sight of the infinite abundance that surrounds us.