𝓜𝔂 𝓜𝓸𝓶𝓮𝓷𝓽 𝓞𝓯 𝓖𝓻𝓪𝓽𝓲𝓽𝓾𝓭𝓮 - Tuesday 5 August 2025

Though I did some serious rewiring already, I am starting to see how stuck I have been in that scarcity mindset.

Limiting myself for decades....

Because planning a future feels like a luxury when survival is the focus.

These posts are:

𝒯𝑜 𝓊𝓃𝒹𝑜 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒹𝒶𝓂𝒶𝑔𝑒 𝐼 𝒹𝒾𝒹 𝓉𝑜 𝓂𝓎𝓈𝑒𝓁𝒻 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓂𝓎 𝒷𝑒𝓁𝒾𝑒𝒻 𝒾𝓃 𝒶𝒷𝓊𝓃𝒹𝒶𝓃𝒸𝑒.
𝒯𝑜 𝒷𝑒 𝑔𝓇𝒶𝓉𝑒𝒻𝓊𝓁 𝒻𝑜𝓇 𝓌𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝐼 𝒽𝒶𝓋𝑒.
𝒯𝑜 𝓊𝓃𝓉𝒶𝓃𝑔𝓁𝑒 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓇𝑒𝓈𝓉 𝑜𝒻 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓌𝒾𝓇𝑒𝓈 𝒾𝓃 𝓂𝓎 𝓈𝒸𝒶𝓇𝒸𝒾𝓉𝓎 𝓂𝒾𝓃𝒹𝓈𝑒𝓉.
𝒯𝑜 𝓇𝑒𝑜𝓅𝑒𝓃 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒹𝑜𝑜𝓇𝓈 𝑜𝒻 𝓅𝑒𝓇𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉𝒾𝑜𝓃, 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓇𝑒𝓂𝑒𝓂𝒷𝑒𝓇 𝓌𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝐼 𝓀𝓃𝑒𝓌 𝒷𝑒𝒻𝑜𝓇𝑒.

"Until you make the unconscious conscious, it will direct your life and you will call it fate,"

Attributed to Carl Jung, reflecting his belief that unconscious thoughts, feelings, and patterns significantly influence behavior and life events without one's awareness.

When these unconscious elements remain unrecognized, the decisions, emotions, and circumstances they shape often lead individuals to perceive these outcomes as unavoidable fate rather than the result of hidden internal forces.

The unconscious can manifest through dreams, recurring patterns, and unexpected life events, particularly when inner conflicts are not acknowledged.

It took me so long to make my unconscious conscious; it took me self-reflection, journaling, and confronting hidden aspects of myself.

I became aware of deep-seated beliefs I held inside, like scarcity and unworthiness.
I decided to change, to gain control over my life, and break free from autopilot survival existence.

Understanding the hidden emotions, their origin, and their impact on one's shadow self is crucial to healing and finding inner peace.

Open the doors, look at myself, see me from a different perspective, which allows me to heal trauma and foster inner peace:

Recognizing and acknowledging my emotions can't be done by running like a headless chicken.
Challenging my emotions, become aware of how they limit beliefs, and reinforce pain and suffering.

Feeling unworthy and disdain to fail is triggered by something, as there is no reason to expect that outcome until the race is run.

Are those ideas even real?
Or can I choose what to believe? Do I choose scarcity, do I choose survival?

And what if I chose to focus on the positive?
That I deserve richness, that one love?

What if instead of remembering failure, remember that time I super succeeded, focus on the fact I always came out on top, and the world was never truly against me?

I started this road to make my unconscious conscious years ago by forgiving.

Forgiveness, not just for the recipient, but most of all, forgiving ourselves. By forgiving, we release the burden, the resentment, the anger.

So, when I forgave myself and others, how did I confront my traumas?
I had to delve into my emotions, explore them, paint them with words, put them on my tongue to taste them.

The taste releases tears, the tears freed my soul, allowing growth, just like water does for plants.

All tears, all teachings, all will need to be absorbed in the Who Am I, the overall life narrative.

In facing my shadows, I found the path to wholeness.

Thank you for making it this far....for those who know me...or better, think they know me, this might have been a WTF moment.

For me, this is a WTF journey, but I finally know my destiny: Avalon and reaching it with a balanced mind.

Reaching it aware of my wounds, my traumas, and working on that balancing act that could make the mind reach its full potential.

Not that I think I will be able to reach perfection in one lifetime or ten, but I at least looked at things from both sides now.

But be aware, a balanced mind might hide the unseen war between outer silence and inner chaos, never revealing that balance is seemingly and in truth only is a mask, a trap.

Those who are seemingly balanced are the ones that I trust most, because being human means repressed trauma, emotional imbalance, and above all others psychological duality.

Like Rudyard Kipling´s (1865 – 1936) IF

If you can keep your head when all about you

Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;

If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,

But make allowance for their doubting too;

Because I looked,

I looked at my mind from both sides now,
From up and down, and still somehow
It's my mind´s illusions I recall
I really don't know my mind at all