𝓜𝔂 𝓜𝓸𝓶𝓮𝓷𝓽 𝓞𝓯 𝓖𝓻𝓪𝓽𝓲𝓽𝓾𝓭𝓮 - Monday 4 August 2025

Though I did some serious rewiring already, I am starting to see how stuck I have been in that scarcity mindset.

Limiting myself for decades....

Because planning a future feels like a luxury when survival is the focus.

These posts are:

𝒯𝑜 𝓊𝓃𝒹𝑜 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒹𝒶𝓂𝒶𝑔𝑒 𝐼 𝒹𝒾𝒹 𝓉𝑜 𝓂𝓎𝓈𝑒𝓁𝒻 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓂𝓎 𝒷𝑒𝓁𝒾𝑒𝒻 𝒾𝓃 𝒶𝒷𝓊𝓃𝒹𝒶𝓃𝒸𝑒.
𝒯𝑜 𝒷𝑒 𝑔𝓇𝒶𝓉𝑒𝒻𝓊𝓁 𝒻𝑜𝓇 𝓌𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝐼 𝒽𝒶𝓋𝑒.
𝒯𝑜 𝓊𝓃𝓉𝒶𝓃𝑔𝓁𝑒 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓇𝑒𝓈𝓉 𝑜𝒻 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝓌𝒾𝓇𝑒𝓈 𝒾𝓃 𝓂𝓎 𝓈𝒸𝒶𝓇𝒸𝒾𝓉𝓎 𝓂𝒾𝓃𝒹𝓈𝑒𝓉.
𝒯𝑜 𝓇𝑒𝑜𝓅𝑒𝓃 𝓉𝒽𝑒 𝒹𝑜𝑜𝓇𝓈 𝑜𝒻 𝓅𝑒𝓇𝒸𝑒𝓅𝓉𝒾𝑜𝓃, 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝓇𝑒𝓂𝑒𝓂𝒷𝑒𝓇 𝓌𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝐼 𝓀𝓃𝑒𝓌 𝒷𝑒𝒻𝑜𝓇𝑒.

Yesterday was all about that disconnect between head and heart...body..soul..or maybe just memories from a life not so long ago.

Traumas from a period in which I really struggled to survive, but those days have been gone for years. I guess my body never got the memo.

There is still this weird sense of intense excitement to the point it gets uncomfortable and might keep you awake.

That sense that you are taking a risk you can not fully control, while that is true, I now do have control in a much broader sense.

There are no real risks that could sweep the ground from under my feet anymore, as there were in the days my nerves like to remember.

Therefore, I will do the same to my nerves as I do to my scarcity mindset, rewire the hell out of them, and this is just step one.

I am going for the highest level of Guru Calm; the earth might shatter below my feet, but I know I will be okay, that kind of calm.

The question is how?

Step 1: Grounding (1 minute)
Sit or stand still, feet firmly planted.

Bring your attention to the soles of your feet.

Say quietly to yourself:
“I am here. The ground is holding me.”

Let your awareness slowly scan up your body: legs, hips, chest, shoulders.

Step 2: Nervous System Reset (2 minutes)
Inhale slowly through your nose for 4 counts

Hold your breath for 2 counts

Exhale gently through your mouth for 6 counts

Repeat this breathing pattern for about 5–6 breaths.

Optional: Place one hand on your chest, one on your belly to feel the breath moving through you.

Step 3: Mental Acknowledgement (1 minute)
Say (out loud or silently):

“My mind knows this is safe.”
“My body feels unsure, and that’s okay.”
“Nothing is wrong with me. I’m just remembering.”

Let that last sentence sink in. Let your body be heard, not fixed.

Step 4: Physical Completion (1 minute)
Shake your hands out.

Roll your shoulders.

Stretch gently.

You can even hum softly (vibration soothes the vagus nerve).

Then return to whatever you were doing, allowing your logic and your emotions to coexist without needing to cancel each other out.

I will treat my body like a scared little boy, make it feel safe. While I sharpen my brain like a weapon, aware that it has all the means to defend itself.

That I have created my safety net, and will land on my feet, no matter the curveball life throws me.

That I control the outcome of any event, and that it will be abundant.

Thank you for making it this far....for those who know me...or better, think they know me, this might have been a WTF moment.

For me, this is a WTF journey, but I finally know my destiny: Avalon and reaching it with a balanced mind.

Reaching it aware of my wounds, my traumas, and working on that balancing act that could make the mind reach its full potential.

Not that I think I will be able to reach perfection in one lifetime or ten, but I at least looked at things from both sides now.

But be aware, a balanced mind might hide the unseen war between outer silence and inner chaos, never revealing that balance is seemingly and in truth only is a mask, a trap.

Those who are seemingly balanced are the ones that I trust most, because being human means repressed trauma, emotional imbalance, and above all others psychological duality.

Like Rudyard Kipling´s (1865 – 1936) IF

If you can keep your head when all about you

Are losing theirs and blaming it on you;

If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,

But make allowance for their doubting too;

Because I looked,

I looked at my mind from both sides now,
From up and down, and still somehow
It's my mind´s illusions I recall
I really don't know my mind at all