Beyond The Looking Glass - Words of the Unseen - Chapter 137
𝓦𝓸𝓻𝓭 𝓫𝔂 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓪𝓾𝓽𝓱𝓸𝓻
Beyond The Looking Glass is the second book in the Unseen series, a story that came to me from the other side. A story where I thought I was just the narrator until I heard the Words of the Unseen.
This second story goes beyond time and place and mixes the long ago with the here and now. Because history keeps repeating, until we learn and do something about it.
Beyond The Looking Glass - Words of the Unseen - Chapter 137
Come on....
Don´t make me say "Sorry" to sour Dutch grocers.
Anyway, it´s not about saying sorry, but I might end up being sorry if I trust that Scroogy mind of mine.
No living person, or entity taking over flesh, has ever told me to dream big....
I was told that the abundance would find me one day, but it would not change me. I would continue shopping at LIDL, which makes sense because they have the best Panecitos.
That was almost 20 years ago.
I am so glad that I am the ever-skeptical and did not hold my breath.
Then there is this other part of me. The part that knew it would happen, but that I should not hold my breath.
It´s as if I can see glimpses.... or could.
I knew I would leave the Netherlands when I landed in Nicaragua.
I knew I would work at a coffee shop that afternoon. I sat at that table, 16 years old and smoking away my last 5 euros.
It applies to so many things.
Is it my wanting that creates the event?
Or is it all planned in advance?
I had seen the cortijo before I even arrived in Spain, and now....this next event...The Refugio.
It started as this little seed.
Something like me knowing that the current road would come to an end, and that things would change a lot.
The weirdest thing is that till then, I had never even given my future a second glance, always too caught up in fixing the present.
I've never been one for planning ahead; I did it all by the seat of my pants. DJ, Study, Spain, Work, they all came when needed or wanted.
My life, a speck of dust on the wind, that blew me where I needed to be.
Then one day, I decided enough was enough and took control. Why was that?
What changed?
The cost of control, spending years doing a job without knowing why.
All I knew was I had to get ahead.
Is it normal to be forty and have no future plans?
You don´t have to Google that; the answer is yes, only 33% have a clear plan.
The rest....
Many of their plans failed for many reasons.
Family plans failed by divorce.
Lack of finance does not stimulate planning ahead...while it might actually be the best solution... but:
Planning feels like a luxury when survival is the focus.
Did I ever plan?
Don´t think so?
Why not?
Good question, why did I let life happen?
The answer comes to me: Because it brought you what you were looking for.
Every step of the way, it brought you what you needed.
It offered you the life you wanted.
I am definitely not one to say: “I did everything I was supposed to — and I’m still not happy.”
I did it all, grabbed what came my way.
Leaving home, getting on a stage, starting a family, leaving my safe place to go looking for my destiny.
It all happened so fast, or at least that is what it feels like, because many of those events took years.
I did not see it, I was constantly in the eye of your own storm.
I smile, knowing I have been the headless rooster for so long.
Now what?
Do I have a midlife crisis?
Or a midlife awakening?
Did it really take me forty years to see I have been surviving, not living intentionally?
On the bright side, awareness is the first step toward clarity. And it happened just in time.
At the start of the third and most important inning.
At the most conscious chapter of my life, I started moving forward with the ability to question my path.
The seed of change, stopping, reflecting, and asking questions, is planning. It’s just not linear or flashy. It’s internal.
Corporate life taught me to plan, to timeline, to see dependencies and risks.
The divorce forced me to get control over my personal life.
Being in control and the calm it brought, allowed me to start asking questions...and listen to the Words of the Unseen.
Both roads have strengthened and are currently overlapping, work & personal will soon be only one.
And I, without a license, will be driving.
In control, looking ahead, assessing risks, and asking questions while going 250 miles per hour.
The picture that appears before makes so much sense.
The faith I feel so strong.
So why do I allow my human mind to limit myself to 300K?
Do I still carry the fear of failure?
My favorite pastime, thinking up worst-case scenarios?
Or am I trying to be realistic, after all the surrealistic stuff I witnessed?
Is it my lack of understanding of the abundance theory?
Or a lifetime spent feeling that I just have enough to get by?
Next Chapter Coming in Two Days
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