The Climb Back

8 days ago

I've been having a hard time. Mixture of vibes as my moods and emotions have crests and dips like a wave profile.
In this current generation it's quite easy to self prescribe yourself as being depressed.
Losing your balance and/or aim. Your reason for doing what you're doing, living how you're living, being who you're being.

In my case, most Google searches have prescribed me as numerous versions of depressed and advices of mental strain.
"Mental strain" I agree with, as this year wasn't entirely a bed of roses for me.
"Depressed" I disagree with. I feel the term "Depressed" is a particular mindset one gets comfortable with when they are in a particular low.

They feel that because they're emotions dip, then they're depressed. Because they're depressed they don't have to work to get back on a crest.
They don't have to Climb Back Up

The.Climb.Back. ~ J.Cole

"Are you doing this work to facilitate growth.. or to become famous?
Which is more important? Giving or letting go?"

This intro is the exact question that has been in my mind for the last 7 days of dip. It's also the question that spurred me to start climbing.
I've been trying to verify my account on upwork. Plus getting verified on LinkedIn and also finding internship forms and trying to carry on with my normal hobbies and teenage acts.
While trying to do all these things, a friend asked me a simple question.. "Why?"
And that really just tripped me over..

Why did I try so hard to start making money at the tender age of seventeen?
Why am I so stuck on being independent?
What am I running from?
Where am I running to?
What am I chasing after?

So many questions, so little answers...

This song is one of my favorite from J.cole, for on this song he gives us a rather serene view on his rediscovering his love for rap and some of his traumatic life experiences.

Every body has traumatic experiences, some nasty falls that make you trip hard, question yourself and fall deeper. Although those things don't matter. The only thing that matters is the climb back up.

Her ~ Jvke

Whenever I get a depressive streak, one app that I'm almost always using is my Deezer music app and Instagram.
The plan is to keep on scrolling and listening. Forcefeeding good music and content into my body mind and psyche till I get better.
It has a near 95% success rate and this time was no different.
Another good thing about that method is the fact that it allows me to get a taste of new things to write about when I do get better, and my newest taste was the artist Jvke.
Apparently he's been around for a while, a veteran of serene pop and his songs are so beautiful in sound.

Sounds exactly like what you'd hear in the old pristine Disney movies or a studio Ghibli movie.

From Now On ~ The Greatest Showman

One thing I've also been doing is watching movies.
All part of the plan for forcefeeding valuable content.
I decided to rewatch this show and I was immersed in their wonderful playlist.

This song in particular really strummed at my heart.
I just love when the turning point songs are played in a good musical. They always find a way to play with your emotions.

The great thing about this tune. Is that even without any context, if you just happened to come across this video and song, you'd still be moved.

These are my pickings for @ablaze's #threetunestuesday today.
All lovely thoughtful heartwarming tunes...