FOREVER AND ALWAYS
This is something I have been looking forward to all the week I had the outfit the vibe I even rehearsed a few light hearted joke listen to lots of motivation speakers on how to make a date worthwhile how I wanted this date to play out well but somewhere between the overcooked saga and a surprising intense debate about pineapple on pizza things went south fast what started with butterflies at home ended with an awkward goodbye and a quiet cab ride back home
It was supposed to be the perfect evening so I thought you know a chance to meet someone new and of cause see if there will be a spark between us I met this guy through a mutual friend we had exchanged a few messages little calls of introduction there was a natural ease to our conversation but on this particular night every speech in my mouth decided to vanish without trace
I showed up early of course I always like to be punctual even if it's means sitting awkwardly at the table glancing at my phone every five minutes I couldn't help it I was nervous it wasn't that I was particularly anxious about him it was more the idea of the date itself what if I messed it up what if I said something weird I was so calculative with my actions that I deprived myself the most important thing The connection
The moment my guy arrived I was a bit relieved he has this outgoing smile that puts me at ease he was dressed just casually enough to see approachable but not underdressed we exchanged a quick hug and after the usual how was you day blablabla pleasantries we dove into the menu The conversation flowed smoothly at least for the first few minutes until this beautiful lady walked in and the guy I was sitting at the table with lost total control of himself I had to call back his attention because the staring was now looking so embracing I must confess the girl was quite beautiful with this attractive backside but that's not enough reason why this guy should be smiling so sheepishly at another lady totally ignoring my presence at the table like who does that the worst was the silence that followed afterwards it was beyond explanation nothing my brian could think of again he wasn't even saying anything no apologies no nothing I was just lost in my own imagination the things I rehearsed just disappeared we were just there staring into our phones constantly checking time
I can't even place my hand at what just happened omg the only thing on my mind was just my bed
What was meant to be romantic turned sour leaving me in a cab alone heart heavy and nerves frayed Immediately I entered my room I kicked off my shoes tossed my keys on the counter and just stood there in the silence my mind was racing with all the things I should have said and shouldn't have said I wanted to scream and cry at the same time all I needed was something to calm my nerves and there's this one thing that has always been there MUSIC
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I just reached for my headphones not knowing what I actually needed to hear I just let my playlist take over no skipping just letting the rhythms find me and there it was FOREVER AND FOR ALWAYS By SHANIA TWAIN The number of times I listened to this song was very unhealthy the music kept reassuring that one day I will this one person I will sing forever and always with you know, there's something magical about music especially when your emotions are a mess it doesn't ask for explanation or your opinion and it doesn't try to fix you either it just sits with you notes by note until your heart steadies and your thoughts untangle By the end of the playlist the night didn't feel like a total disaster to me anymore it was just another story to keep my imaginations busy and the other song that followed A NEW DAY HAS COME BY CELINE DEON was just another reaffirmation of looking out for the brighter side of life Everything may not go as planned but the are all working out for our good my night date might not have been the perfect date but I believe it happened that way to save me from an upcoming disaster and to prepare we the best that's coming
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One unique thing about this songs and their artist is that their voices don't just sings they soar with emotions and strength they know how to tell a story that doesn't just touch the heart but deep into the soul that feels like they're speaking right to you no matter how tough the time is good music is the soundtrack of life it's not just music but the feeling of comfort a reminder that we're not alone
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By the time the playlist ended I was smiling The date night might not have gone the way i imagined yeah but thanks to a few GOOD SONGS and a pair of headphones I found peace in the chaos and maybe just maybe that's enough the songs didn't just fix what had gone wrong but it reminded me I was still whole The rhythms of life doesn't stop just because of one night that went offbeat
Of Course Life Continues