The pain inside

Haven't been able to stop thinking and asking myself if I wasn't good enough to love ....or love isn't just for me....
This song titled wishes by Jamie Miller has been on repeat on my phone for days now and I can't help but cry each time I listen to it...

I am trying, how come he doesn't see it...
he doesn't call or text and always I endure and never complain because I want us to fix things...
He's always busy but I ain't leaving cause I know it's not easy,but nothing seems to be working....
He said he loved me and I believed it...
He gave me moment and I lived it..
He showed me a world of just us and I created it...
He called me his and I cherished it...
He took me on a ride and I enjoyed it.....
Now our ship is sinking and I can't save it....
I guess this is it...
My mental health is at stake,more like i am going insane, cause no more can I concentrate....
I had faith in us, but everything seems to fade and now this is what has become of our fate... turns out his love was fake and just the thought of it makes my heart break.
I did all I could...
I showed him how much I cared..
I proved how much I loved him..
I offered him my best and
I trusted him......
With this making the word SPOT which he had right at the center of my heart and without a second thought he smashed it....
I am still wondering how we got here, but he doesn't seem to care....I lost myself in loving him, I became someone else I never knew, cause I was all in for him.... just him....yet he betrayed me for my best friend....
And now all I do is WISH.....I wish I never met him....I wish I didn't fall so much in love with him....and I also wish that my broken heart will be fixed again....

To love is hard but letting go is the hardest..... truly music is medicine for the soul... listening to these songs has helped relieved my depression a bit....I know with time i will surely heal and move on with my life....i just hope it happens soon...

       Yours
            Ojima