Waking Up Is Hard To Do

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I wrote a post yesterday for #MindfulMonday that took me around 11 hours to write and it's still not finished.

I gave up at around 10.30-whatever-pm last night when my eyes were too sore to continue. What a drag is is getting old. - The Stones

Writing on my phone as the dodgy, old laptop has finally given up the ghost. Once this would have stressed me out...silly me! 🙄

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I then thought I could post it today for #ThreeTuneTuesday and somehow make it fit with the prompt for #TravelLightTuesday in The Minimalist community. where there's a free will, there's usually fuck tons of giggles

But, these days, I don't fight "the flow" quite so much.

I do still take action, however, because I don't want to be a dead fish floating downstream...

but I don't try to force the ball if things don't go the way I want them to.

I am a fledgling Dragon after all! 😉
 

"Force the Ball" is an expression Jack Lord name changed for privacy, of course and I came up with on a road trip during a game of Pool, to be clear. Reiterated by all major spiritual guides repeatedly and I listen to those further along the road, these days. It just makes learning far easier and far quicker!

Having said that, I tend to listen to everybody I meet. Which is what the unfinished but will be shared post is about. And it's a great story! In my opinionated opinion anyway. 😆

May you find your sense of humour now.

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These days, if I'm hitting my head against a brick wall, I take it as a nudge from what ever is, or isn't, running the show to change Direction.

And so, I will save that post for next week's Mindful Monday.

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My old dodgy laptop finally gave up the ghost this morning. Yes. I know I'm repeating myself but, sometimes, one has to because some people aren't able to hear things the first time.

Since writing on my phone, or creating content on my phone, takes so long...

the energy expended on content creation versus the rewards will not be condusive to me getting to where I want to be. It's not rocket science.

I have an eating disorder so I understand energy and input vs expenditure and output very well. But those of you who read me will already know this.
 
And no... it's not about the money. Only. Health and time! Our most valuable commodities. Already shared "Way Back" when I first joined Hive in June 2022. ❤️
 
And so I am going to take this as a nudge to redirect and pursue another interest I've had for quite some years.

I'll still be creating because I can't not do this. I'm just going to do it as my hobby now.

And to keep a connection with some very good only humans I've met around the Hive-Verse. Fuckin' adore you Nuggets and Pippins always. You are my "People".❤️

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So, in line with my favorite way to walk in the world, keeping it simple, here are three tunes for Three Tune Tuesday. One of my favorite initiatives on hive.

And in support of @ablaze, a busy working husband and dad, who goes out of his way to share the good vibes.

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Spotify sent this my way one day and it made me smile.

Curiosity is one of my values.

But I'll share more about my values next Monday because that's exactly what the almost finished post is about.

This song landed on my playlist somehow and I took the time to find out more about the Creator. Because I'm ever curious. Of course. 🙃

Written by a son who lost his mother and used his grief to rise.

It's a beautiful, inspiring story and it's worth finding out more about him, I think.

This is what they refer to as "The Alchemy", by the way.

And all that glitters, really is not gold. And a "Diamond" really is a girl's everybody's best friend.
 


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The next track is from one of my favorite DJs in the Psy-Trance scene.

Not only because I like his music but because I like him.

Another dedicated father and loyal husband who walks his walk. He's an awesome human and an incredible musician.

No. He is not a drug addict devil-worshipper because he's into Psy-Trance. In fact, I've never once seen Tristan high on anything but sunshine, good vibes and great music in the multitude of times I both saw him play and spoke to him at parties.

He's into health and fitness. And music. And his family. Probably why he's one of the top in his game. That and his open-mindedness, lack of judgment and open-heartedness.

On other words, he's a spiritual person who walks his walk!

You can't not respect that, huh?! Beautiful! I guess he's done some seeking and owns his Shadow self. 💥

Posts on why prejudice, stereotyping and bias are so silly and dangerous all over my feed on the Hive-Verse. And why I avoid that shit like The Plague. Along with lack of personal accountability because no change is possible without it. Logically. ❤️
 


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And Goldfish. !

Again.

Because local is lekker and these guys have talent.

The first time I saw them was at an Earth Dance. I was shit-faced, of course, and was headed to the main dance floor sometime during the day. It could have been morning or it could have been afternoon. All I remember is that the sun was shining.

I walked past the Jazz Stage again, saw a crowd gathered and decided to have a look and a listen.

I ended up staying and listening to their whole set.

And, of course, I danced. !

Barefoot.

In the sun!

 


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Bonus tune because Music!
 


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#freejulianassangeyouutterfuckingbastards

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Your shame and embaressment will stop you from learning and progressing.
 
It's only not "all good" if it is intentional.
 
Let that shit go if you really wanna Travel "Light"!
 

From the School of Hard Knocks.
Nicky Dee
 
On we go
 
👣 ❤️
 
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@peakd - Heads up: No option to add links in text editor on mobile. If I didn't know my HTML I would have really struggled to format this properly. I stand to be corrected if I've missed something. Always.

But it'd be beneficial for Noobs to have easy formatting in the mobile editor. As well as snippets, please?

And are you guys ever gonna fix the [open bracket]/center[close bracket] issue? 😊

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@nftshowroom - Thanks for your quick response :) I don't have other social media on my phone so will have to download Twitter (ugh) or SoundCloud and check messages there to get whitelisted if not yet accepted.

I do have two NFTs ready to upload but Hive Keychain is not working on Brave - mobile - so can't log in right now.

@stoodkev maybe wants to have a looksee?

I am using a VPN as well so maybe that?

@themarkymark - where the fuck are you? I still wanna know how to launch that successful NFT collection. This is your "good fight", dude. Step up, please.

Motivation = Truth.

And, sadly and predictably, motivation these days is usually driven by financial gain.

Now who started the fight conversation anyway?

And why?

 
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Somebody once told some people I'm a racist, by the way. True story. Perhaps I'll share it around here one day. 😆

P.S. One of the first things I was told, when I began to be curious around here, was to not believe everything I read on the internet.

It made me laugh out loud and I was instantly Spirited Away into the Hive-Verse of amazing things forevermore...

I shall await your return. Not because I'm a sycophant. But because I support people who own their shit. even if they tend to overcompensate and own other people's shit accidently. I can help with that if you like.

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To @ablaze and the participants of #ttt. Apologies for not engaging more over the last bit.

I'm not being a selfish asshole. I'm not that. Nor am I an:

Arrogant

Dick

Although the very definition of the word "arrogant" would make this immediately obvious with what I've tried to share in past posts.

Thank you, again, for your precious reading time! Honestly. And your immense patience and forgiveness of my being only human. 🙏🏻

Technical issues. And life.

Brb, genuinely always!

Because, even under fire, one thing I am is consistent.

Unless I've made a mistake. Of course. Then I learn as fast as possible. Because time... 😅

Same same as you lot. And I stick with the winners. These days. The ones that learn, shift and adapt quickly, that is. Darwin said this. And he sounds kinda smart. ❤️

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Happening slowly behind the scenes...

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Aweh

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Eternal Seeker
Hardened Dreamer
Mother
Peaceful Warrior
Determined Dancer
and Stargazer

still...

Beyond fear is freedom

And there is nothing to be afraid of.

To Life, with Love... and always for Truth!
Nicky Dee

www.mettame.art

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All images not sourced directly are my own. Original Aweh (meta Verse) illustration created with Photoshop. Original illustration used original source unknown. Aweh Gif created using Canva. All photo editing done with GIMP.

 

Please forgive fuck-ups and typos. Unintended and only human. I'll do same for you. Of course. ❤️



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@themarkymark - where the fuck are you? I still wanna know how to launch that successful NFT collection. This is your "good fight", dude. Step up, please.

Doing things that people value and isn't a waste of my time.

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Hope it's 3D printer and poop related. My son loved your sign. Told you already. You're in his club. And anyone who makes it into his club is welcome in mine.

You can trust him. He's a Nugget. Nuggets always fight the good fight.

Take care of yourself and can't wait to see what you're making next. Or not. As you wish. ❣️🪷👣

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Hope it's 3D printer and poop related.

There is no money in 3D printing, it is just a hobby.

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:D

Well that's why your 3D projects are so appreciated by the Ultimate Nugget then.

Of course. That makes absolute sense 👍🏻

"They" say "the best things in life are free y'know.

I'd have to agree...

these days.

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You and that bloody dancing :OD

Any post that takes 11 plus hours to write is not a post! Its an opus!

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I'm still OCD about being rubbish. Work in progress... and here I am punting UR already Perfect. Guess you can see why I'm so obsessive about not trying to be perfect now.

I had a much older lover, once upon a life ago, who maintained that he knew his life needed checking if he'd stopped dancing.

After more understanding, I'd have to concur in full.

He was one smart man. That man. I still miss him. I'll write about him one day because he taught me alot a lot!

It may be a bit too adult for some of my readers tho... so when the time is right. Or never perhaps.

But it's some story. It contains alternative sex stuff, high quality LSD, fist fights on the dance floor, "mud monsters", how he retired at the age of 40, actual freedom fighting during Apartheid and some very, very good music!

I suspect you'd enjoy it. 👍🏻

Never stop the dance, my dear Mr M 💃

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I suspect I would enjoy that take very much!!! Sounds slightly similar at a high level to solve of my youth, lol

Dancing, singing, vibrating about with joy are all splendid things! Deffo a check needed when you do doing them!

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Yeah...

I don't know that we should grow up quite so much.

It's not healthy!

We really should remember to play a bit more. 🤔 With more wisdom we've accumulated. Of course.

I wouldn't do half the shit I got up to in my well-spent youth!! 😆

I'm far too mature these days.


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Its har dnot to be mature when we are more mature than we feel!

I struggle to retain the wonder of childness. But I never stop trying!

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Oh... I'd have to (respectfully) disagree.

You're still full of wondering and curiosity. And humour. And courage. And open-mindedness. And honesty.

Like a child before we (most) adults fuck them up. we should listen to the kids more!

But with the smarts of an adult. Nicely done. I wish I'd learned as well as you have.

Busy catching up now though...

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"When I met Harry" took me almost two months to write, btw 🤨

Maybe I should stick to visuals and try music. 🤔

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Good lord, you are dedicated, I will give you that!

I used to do animations which took weeks but writing has always been a quick affair even when writing stories

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Oh. Perhaps determined more than dedicated.

Bibliophile. Avid reader. I read the Classics. Was listening to a Jane Austin during loadshedding the other night. Brilliant and hilarious. Still!

And the modern stuff too.

Like the whole Beat generation quite some. Thompson. Keruoak. Bukowski (of course!). Robbins (a natural progression). Started reading a Miller in December 2022 but couldn't bear it. It was just too good and I knew I'd stop writing forever. Have it here waiting... perhaps it's time.

Have a Steinbeck on the dresser here and a Hess as well.

You know...

I know it'll take years, if ever, to be a decent writer. I mean... like my idols.

I still quote Electric Cool Aid Acid Test's first line all the time when my boy does summink clever.

"That's cool thinking, Cool Breeze."

Though I use it when someone's been a total dumbass even more often. More in line with the original context... 😆

Yes. You have a natural way with words. Some folks do. And it's hard to write humour without sounding like you're trying too hard.

I can read when it's easy and natural for you and when you're balancing this and life responsibilities :)

You do it very well! Both life and writing 👏🏻👌🏻

p.s. just Google to make sure I remember that being the first line of the book correctly amd see copies going for over 3000 dollars. I may become a rare book collector/agent yet!

p.p.s I did not finish Googely woogling my fact checking of myself. So may be wrong. Still. It's a great line amd def on the first page of opening Chapter. 👍🏻

Do you read much?

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I used to read a lot. All the time. Then parenthood struck and I found myself reading less. Then Steem/Hive struck and I found myself reading even more less. I have been pushing myself to get back into it though as there is truly nothing more satisfying and stretchy of the mind!

I think you will write an amazing book and I for one would love to read the damn thing! :OD

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Haw. Thanks, M.

I will write that book. One day.

Yep. Same here. It was when smart phones took off, huh? And parenthood. Yep. Time shifts completely. Or disappears entirely 👀 👣

I also miss reading. I don't do it much anymore either. :(

That's the dream. Cabin in the mountains somewhere distant. A pack of wolves. Or Huskies. A big log fire. Lake to swim in nearby in summer. Two rocking chairs on the porch to talk shit and stargaze. And wall to wall bookshelves.

It really shouldn't be as complicated as it is, apparently, to achieve this.

Good old gods above.

(Maybe satellite. I'd have to for the young human so... and a music studio packed with top notch tech and instruments! And a pony. "Daddy... I want a pony!" - Veruca Salt)

Did you know:

Roald Dahl wrote all of his books by hand in a wood shed at the bottom of his garden. Cool, huh?

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You know how to do old school hand drawn illustrations?

Can I see some, please? :)

So interested to learn this art...

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I used to do them back in the day. They were stick man kind of things. Not super complicated but they did take a lot of time but were worth it for the lols. For example:

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Did a whole pile of hardfork ones too, they made me laugh :OD

https://hive.blog/life/@meesterboom/hardfork-animations-and-the-story-behind-them

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Ohmyoldgods!!!

You're a genius :D

Cyanide and Happiness are one of my all times faves! And ASDF.

You're up there. Don't stop. I'm gonna follow the link and research your adventures now.

Today is was reading day but... oooooh... shiny! 💰

Let me entertain you during your tea break 🤣



Sadly could not add the Cyanide and Happiness image. Seems to be a problem uploading on @peakd mobile. Your Taylor Swift .gif as well. I'd like to see that, please? Do you have a website?


My offering:

https://explosm.net/

Wanted to upload the Russian roulette spin the bottle one.

Part of my true story. But that contains a train ride, a French boy with a massive c*ck, a bottle of Jim Beam and a spontaenous scuba dive.

For adults only 👍🏻

I'll give you early access if I write that chapter sometime.

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Peakd gives me major gyp worth them too but you can look on hive.blog. lol.

I will try and find the original posts. I used to do them quite regularly and post to hive/steemit. Had to stop sad they were so time consuming!! And they were fucking with my eyes.

I love the cyanide and happiness stuff. Deffo a big influence!!

Part of my true story. But that contains a train ride, a French boy with a massive c*ck, a bottle of Jim Beam and a spontaenous scuba dive

Hehe, bloody magic

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It's like that, innit?

Honesty and authentic connection create "magick"

Now... in all honesty...

I have no idea how this part works.

I'll just roll with it tho. Because it works 👍🏻

Jung calls it "synchronicity" though. And he was kinda clever. So...

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Working off my phone and eyes and laziness too. But am off to have my hair done today (half done anyway but still dreading sitting still for however long for grooming rituals 😕)

I read it :D

I'll come following you any day of the Gregorian calender 👍🏻 🤣


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I'm happy that you're finding it easier to let go and not get worked up about things. It's seldom worth it.

I'm happy that you have dancing o keep you going strong, happy and free.

I'm not one who can work from mu mobile phone without wanting to hurt someone, so I admire you. I do hope that an alternative will present itself. 🤗

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Yeah. I can't work from my mobile phone!

In fact... yesterday I thought of rewriting that slow internet meme amd how it shows a person's true metal...

Into working on a friggin' phone.

So today I slept in 👍🏻 And I was tired so it was awesome 💥💥💥❤️ Needed it. Felt too bad to do it. So maybe dead laptops are a good thing for now. See?

Like that. A bit of faith. That it's gonna work out. And maybe for the better even. 🙃

I'll roll with it. My point is it doesn't freak me out anymore. So, perhaps, my work "thing" is fixed!

There's some interesting work in animal conservation around here. 🤔

That may not be for me. Pretty soft hearted. Believe it or not! But love animals so will attend next meet.

And hey ho... we gotta let go to move into the next whatever. Right?


Tried to find the Dory scene where she tells Marlin to "just let go"... but this was the best that came up. (the Whale scene)

I'd find it and have a good look if I were you. It's quite brilliant!!!

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You downvoted two of my comments ,
May i ask why

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I’ve made every single post EVER…from my phone. I often wonder if “computer people” have it better off than me…now I know :)

This was a fun read, I’m glad we ran into each other!

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Oh goody... same sense of humour.

Yep. "Computer people" have an edge fo sho :(

Hate my phone. With a great laptop comes greater content.

Anyway. We do our best.

Looking forward to hearing more from you :D

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Yay! Lol I know one tjing for sure, this is whst the test looks like for everything I type if i don’t go bsck through snd fix it manually! sO cOoL, tHx PhOnE! Hahaha

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It's terrible!

And then with old, burnt out eyeballs it becomes even worse!!!

I must type slower. And read through before I hit publish. Good thing they did that second layer thing or I'd be costing the blockchain a bundle 😳

Also. Don't stress. I don't sweat the small stuff anymore. Amd typos are, most certainly, the small stuff.

Really

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I'd correct that but I'm restraining myself 🤨

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Apologies for not engaging more over the last bit.

Hahaha. OMG, you have seen my personal lack of responsiveness over the past.. what.. month? Two? Oy. We all have our own stories, and we all need to do our own thing. The best thing about you is that you do you, and you do it well.

I absolutely could not write a post on my phone. No. I think, if I were in that situation, I'd either just say "fuck it" and not do it at all, or say "fuck it" and write it by hand to take a picture of and upload that.

Either way, I'm pretty sure the words "fuck it" would be uttered.

I liked Forever Free. A lot.

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:D

Well... I've sacrificed almost everything to do "me". So no going back now. And I do my best to do me well.

Still... I fuck it up a lot! But I've learned to own it quickly and try and do better.

And I try and do that for other only humans too. Fuck it really means not taking the actions of other people personally. It rarely is personal. Since mostly we are projecting.

There's nothing better, for me, than to walk in the world with a clear conscience! You can't be forever free without this, you know.

Truthfully!

A person will hide from their authentic self without this. Forever.

And Jung, again, said it already. A person will go to whatever lengths to hide from their own darkness - summink like that.

I plan to hold on to my very hard won freedom forever! Thank you very much.

After a certain time of walking this "path" you can't really go back. You can't "unsee" certain things.

:/

Goldfish rock!!!

Here's my all time favorite of theirs.


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Diamond In The Sun is brilliant, such a happy go lucky song that would make anyone want to get up and dance, I love it!

That 2nd track is a real banger and the fella who made it sounds like a good guy with good balance in his life, fair play to him.

Bare foot dancing to song in the sun, yep I can see how this music would stop you in your tracks, nice....

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Music. Breaks us on through to the other side!

Happy #ttt, B :D

It's gonna be a good day 🌼💃🕺

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