Sand and desires

I woke up in the sand. Some bird sounds came with more intensity as I opened my eyes; and I was annoyed to see the humpbacked horizon. I have this problem with the horizon... I also miss smoking, even though Daisy Gray says in the comments of her video that she does not support the promotion of smoking, nor does she smoke. Apparently it's all about pointing out an aesthetic or contrasting something, in this case, the sea with the toxicity of smoking. Still, I feel like smoking. But who cares.

I can say I've woken up wherever I want, even in Iceland. It is very easy to daydream. Here is a list of the best beaches in this sparsely populated northern European country (what a delight) that presents itself as a very safe place, where people know how to enjoy life very well.

_{my imagination and a little help}

This morning I'm craving a walk in Iceland. It's beautiful there. I just have to open my laptop and ask to be taken far away and that's how I immerse myself in its natural landscapes, which are quite diverse. There are mountains, valleys, plains, cliffs, glaciers, geysers... auroras borealis.

Don't judge me, I was alone, thinking about the sea, the cigarette, that song that was caressing and tearing me at the same time and I had nothing better to do than to play a little with the AI.

However all this preamble is because I want to tell you about this woman. Bing and I think we've done a good job.

_Björk

But look, don't get overwhelmed. This post is about music, inspired by music. I'm a weird human being, I could say I'm boring. I'm basically moved by ideas and emotions, I remember two days ago I was talking a bit about Dogma, a film movement, and that thought takes me to the moment when I discovered that, and Lars von Trier.

I went to the Chaplin cinema, which is almost on the corner of 12th and 23rd in Havana's Vedado. The movie advertised at the box office was "Dancer in the Dark", by Lars von Trier. This was some years ago. What I remember is that the film was a big slap in the face and made me question many things about human nature and my personal aspirations.

_{Björk, Catherine Deneuve, source: Filmaffinity}

Let's connect things a bit more here: Selma, the protagonist of that story daydreams while working in a factory.

I knew then, as a result of that visit to the cinema, the whole question of Dogma because I read there a little bit about what I would see and the film somehow complies with some of its precepts, a few, like the fact - for example - that it was filmed with handheld camera.

That was also the day I met Björk. And as the years went by I learned that she had never acted in films again, because she preferred to devote herself to her striking musical career.

I like her songs, her music and how cool she tends to be. I saw this short today of her explaining why she doesn't like to sign autographs. I loved it.

https://youtube.com/shorts/Hvefr011TzI?si=p0qhcpSCwqMOHnQx

As for the songs I have my favorites. I could mention, for example, jóga, and back to the arena. Today I am connected to the sand, in many beautiful ways.

And as I circled that black surface, I thought about how hard my life has been to get to where I am, and how I have yet to learn.

What do I seek, what do I want, what do I desire? Perhaps these are a bit complex to answer now, and I don't think many people are even clear on this. But I do, which maybe I have lacked action. Or I just put things off.

I was looking for freedom. In a way I've had it. I wanted to be me, without ballast, without questioning. Well, every day I am more myself, and I don't make concessions with this. In all these years I have been trying to be my best version. And my desire has always been to be honest with myself and others. When I think about Björk I feel that she is authentic and honest with herself, and with her art.

I've been very quiet today. I just write a little and think of sands... hourglasses, maybe in poetry when I hear her say:

While you are away

My heart comes undone

Slowly unravels

In a ball of yarn

I know. I have my own cage and inside it also my freedom. Incredible as it may seem to you, I don't just want to dream. I have this life and I also have a wish list.

I hope I can fulfill it, because I put all my faith and my heart in it.