Maybe I deserve all this pain

I woke up this morning, trying to behave like nothing happened between us yesterday. I stood up and went straight to making my Daily Coffee, while I switched the TV on with the remote on my hand. Then I went for my Phone. Immediately I switched on my phone, it was the picture of you I saw, my eyes were lost on my phone staring at your picture which I used as my screensaver. My mind kept on saying “What have you done” If only I could have heard your thoughts and waited to understand you.

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“Can you feel what am feeling now”, I said to myself in reflection. When I could not hold my thoughts, I had to call her and what she had to say. I asked her why are we avoiding each other, i did not cheat and you also didn’t, this is just a minor fight let’s settle this am your babe and I will always be your babe, Words can’t describe how I feel now, I don’t mind waiting till dawn, I will always hold you when things are wrong babe. After hearing how I poured my heart out, she was speechless, then I had to cut the call and give her time to think and reflect on herself.

I kept staring at my TV trying to concentrate but I couldn’t because my thoughts were on her. I love her like I have never loved anyone else. I then picked up my headphones and played Zayn Malik songs which I came across this song.

While I was listening to this song, I started reflecting on what I did. What happened was that we had always had several little arguments which we had held with each other for long. Sometimes it's about who to cook, it's about friends, she dislikes some of my friends which I don’t like her for. And she also complains about little things. Like the way I talk to her and how I walk several things also. It got to a stage where I couldn’t take it anymore I had to raise my voice at her, and she got angry and then left my home and now am down with thoughts about her. All I want now is to hug her and spend sometimes more with her now, i miss her cuddles, I miss her meals, I miss her recipes, I miss our cherished moments, i know she still loves me but she's just angry at me. I will try to reconcile with her because my heart feels heavy now.

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To love someone is the greatest experience we can ever encounter in life. But did I do anything wrong in letting her go like that? I just hate being corrected on minor things. My walk, my style is my way of life, I grew up to understand life's nature like that. But if she wants it all corrected I will. Presently now am waiting for her because am ready to hold her hands once more and I will always be by her side even though she’s in trouble. She is my Angel.