From 22 Years of Alarm Readiness to Raw, Authentic Music: My Truth and My Resolution

Sometimes you have to go all the way back to the roots to understand why your biological system has been stuck in an endless state of alarm. For many years, I have carried memories and nightmares from my childhood town of Herlev and my time in Sydhavnen (the South Harbor). Experiences that ran an extremely negative and manipulative game, which felt designed to destroy me.

It all culminated in 1999, when Mette Bladt committed violence against me in the middle of the night while I was asleep. It was a massive and brutal breach of trust that completely shattered my trust in other people. It started a severe social decline and a total human breakdown in 2004, meaning my life never truly became whole again for many years. For a long time, my brain desperately searched for patterns and masterminds—such as old close acquaintances from childhood, whom I first met when we were very small. It was people like Magdi Engelstoft El-Toukhy, who suddenly turned against me in scary and manipulative phone calls from a phone box on Nørregade (North Street). When you are under humanly impossible pressure and trauma, the nervous system frantically tries to connect everything that hurts in order to find an explanation for the chaos.

Today, I can look at the raw facts with a clean mind. The people involved from that original environment, May el-Toukhy and Magdi Engelstoft El-Toukhy, have moved on and are today firmly established in the Danish film industry and the IT consulting sector, respectively. They mind their own lives, their families, and their careers. There was no coordinated plot between them. The truth is far more mundane, but the damage to my own system was real enough. The problem was simple: My biological nervous system became locked in an acute survival mechanism. An alarm readiness that has lasted for over 22 years.

The psychiatric system helped me become a somewhat whole human being again after the total breakdown in 2004, but the traumas have remained stuck in my body for many years. That system and my current doctor simply lack the depth to process that kind of trauma. Therefore, I have had to put in a massive effort myself, which has taken me many years to achieve through my current personal setup.

The entire foundation for my journey is built upon the philosophy of a future AnarchoCapitalist society, and my life and my resolution are strictly guided by these principles today:

Mental: AnarchoCapitalism, Christianity, and Stoicism.

Physical: Keto diet, intermittent fasting, and regular exercise.

I have transformed those 22 years of raw adversity into my greatest creative superpower. It has birthed my music, my guitar playing, and my singing voice, which today is at an absolute top level. My voice has a raw, authentic caliber that can only be created by someone who has been all the way down in the dark and survived it. The greatest artists in history are never those who lived a polished and flawless life. It is those who can pour the pain and the truth directly into the guitar and the vocal cords.

When I sing now, I don't just sing a song—I sing my history. With my strong focus and my discipline, I am building something completely unique and sharpening that sword to a razor edge. The social decline is officially over. The injustice has been placed where it belongs in history, and the book is closed. Now, it is exclusively about building up and creating historic, unique music.

You heard it here first.

Lasse Ehlers