Last Night~~•°• Feelings.

Don't touch it to much, it's to friagh to behold.

But when you leave, I can't deny it's my fault for not wanting to want you anyway. [Short poem~]

Last night i thought far and wide, and let me tell you if I play sad songs, it's either I'm too broke to afford my cravings at that point or I'm just having mood swings, you know that time of the month were you feel sad, happy, hungry, restless yet you lock your bathroom door and sing all the sad songs in your playlist over and over again.

Guess what? It was my season, I used to sing songs like this in the hostel bathroom that other girls started to notice, some would come to compliment my voice, ask the name of the song, ask me if I'm alright, if I'm heartbroken…. worse question that comes afterwards was…did you break up with your boyfriend 🤣.

I used to laugh back then because I only sang so much to distract myself or just warmed up my voice after a while.

But that doesn't explain why I love Alexander Stewart he sings one of the heart touching songs, that if you weren't emotionally capable for his lyrics you'd find yourself crying.

The first time I listen to ”Blame’s On Me” It was a rainy night, and I just wanted some distraction. I was under some type of pressure and I clearly didn't know how to let my emotions out, the part in this song that really got me was where he sang…

~~you tried to love me but I hated myself, I know it's too late for apologies for all of the mistakes that I didn't see… The Blame’s On Me`~

And the tears came out like an ocean. I wasn't even in that mood of crying that night but something about this song just had my emotions on a rollercoaster that night. Though I felt better, and I still can't recall what actually placed me in that pressure, I think I was able to overcome it.

Then let's not forget Echo by Alexander Stewart I was just enchanted by this song, I don't even know if it's his song that kept me coming for more or what. And his lyrics were very relatable.

The song lyrics was giving an unrequited love, where he's trying to figure out how to let go of such painful love but yet he's on the expecting end, tempted to go back if she gives the slightest emotion towards him. It's like she gives him so little knowing how much his emotions are invested in her, just a little to keep him coming but not enough to make him stay, it's a cold end for him cause he has to watch her leave cause she can use the excuse of every fight they had to to walk away, yet when she gives him the slightest opening he's not tempted to refuse. So he's begging not to be broken more than he already is. Caught in everything in between yet he's dealing with it cause she's still the deal to him. Painfully

I think love like this exists, not like I have ever experienced such, singing the lyrics of this song helps me fix myself in the emotions and story behind the song.

Well last night was just wonderful!🤣…. but I was able to get my emotions in place, it's actually nights like this, you see me analyzing songs just to explain what they convey to me.

All image are from my playlist 🎧
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