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I have a knack of listening to random songs sometimes. I mean—mostly, I would stick to the playlist I created or the Taylor Swift album I've been playing on repeat but there'll be times when I feel like listening to the suggested songs that Spotify thinks I would like based on my playlist.

One of these fateful times I did such, I reencountered A To The Moon's Somebody Out There. Boy! I really fell in love with this song! I played it on repeat the day I heard it! It just fills my heart so much, the melody, the singing voice and damn! The message! Oh boy, if there's a thing such as a song crush, I was crushing over this song so hard when I heard it again!

Funny thing though is that, as I listen to this song, I feel like it speaks to me and as it does, it's as if the song's directing me to a specific someone. Someone I know who's listening to me, someone I feel like looking AT me! I guess the reason why I fell in love with this song is because I am thinking about this somebody-out-there to be the ONE OUT THERE. Gosh! So much word play on that, eh? But the point is, I listened and fell in love with this song with someone in my mind (and heart?)

This someone I keep mentioning is a friend I've known for years but our relationship was nothing but acquaintanceship. I only got close to this friend on the early onset of the pandemic quarantine. We became closer, discovered common interests, ground, preferences, common humor, and points of view on diverse sets of topics. We laugh at each other's stories and jokes. We sympathize at each other's loss. We discovered a friend we never knew existed in each other. Don't get me wrong, there are still things that we disagree about but another common thing we have is respect for each other's opinion.

Now, this friend and I nurture the friendship we found through sharing different stories we have almost every single time. From the meals he and I prepare to the banters he and his friend share on their Zoom Meetings class. From the nonsense gossips we each collect from our mutual online community to the battle I have with PCOS—we share all those kinds of things and more. We just don't run out of things to talk about to the point that even our shared silence speaks meaning.

Then one night, as he was about to drop me off after a dinner date we had with friends, a song plays on his car as we just talk and talk and talk to each other for hours. _{(yes, with him dropping me home doesn't mean I'll get off his car and just say "bye" right away)} . It's a song from his playlist which made me stop and tell him "Uyyyy favorite ko 'to! Nasa liked list ko 'yan sa Spotify!" To which he responded that the song is one of the songs he liked, not just because of the melody but also because of its message. He said that it's so perfectly put together and he likes it for what it is. After sharing the short thoughts we have of the song, we just sat there. Listening to the every word of it, humming through its melody. The very same song that makes me think of him, the same song I guess I fell in love with because I feel like it's him who's out there but haven't realized it yet. The same song that I kept playing on repeat with this silly smile on my face. But the question is—is he really the one out there for me?"