This Time, I Won’t Be Left Heartbroken.

I think I should continue a post about how my relationship is going. On my last post in this community, I talked about the rift I had with my man which eventually left me crying.
Then, I called one of my big sisters who advice me a lot to tell me what to do.

She said, “just be patient. Getting a good man now is hard and based on what you have gone through, I want you to be patient so that you will know truly if he loves you or not”.
I held on to her words and chatted with him for so long today. I apologized to him for checking his phone and all that happened but he wasn’t really giving me a smooth response.

Everything felt like I was forcing him to talk to me. At first, I was trying to form a hard girl and acting like his actions won’t get to me and I won’t be pained but I can’t help it.
In my past, I have experienced eight heartbreaks and I do not want this to happen again and that’s why I am trying to protect my relationship in every way that I can.

Eight heartbreaks? I know that can be surprising but that’s the fact. It’s not that I have the worst attitude. I’m good, kind and straightforward but how come I keep getting heartbroken? But now, I had already said that I won’t be heartbroken.
He’s not giving me the best vibe I want and I even asked him why but said he wasn’t in the mood.

As a music lover, I went straight to YouTube to watch some love music videos. To be very honest, I wanted to cry more. I just wanted to cry my eyes out till I’m fine.

I just watched the music video and bursted into tears. When will a man genuinely love me? Or is he going to leave me heartbroken too? You know what, I have planned to pray tonight so that the love keeps waxing stronger and he treats me just exactly the way he treated me when we first met.

I want to be loved as well. I think I just need to advice someone here. If you are ever loved by someone, never take them for granted. There are so many people out there who wish to be loved for even a day so hold the one who loves you very tight.

Guess what? I just have that feeling that I’ll get married to this man. He’s my man and I keep saying it to myself. Yea, we have our flaws but we both can come together to make things work out.
Lastly, I know I’m sad but I won’t let him go. I won’t worship him like a god but I’ll make sure that he loves me enough not to ever think of me leaving him.

This man will be my husband and with him, I’ll surely experience love.